Awfully tired

Today was a tiring day. I started the day already feeling quite tired. It was probably because I slept pretty late last night. I remembered it was close to 1 a.m. when I landed on my bed to rest.

It was Wednesday, and it was the day when I would facilitate a group programme for several children. Somehow, I felt a little drained today.

Anyway, I took time-off from work this afternoon so that I could be early to prepare for my lesson with my double bass tutor. There was a heavy rain when I was on my way to the venue for the leson. It was such an inconvenience to travel about in a heavy rain.

Lesson was great. My tutor prompted me to do play some exercises from F. Simandl's New Method for the Double Bass. Later, we worked on the Marcello's Sonata in G minor. I wish I could one day develop the kind of musicality that my tutor possesses. Somehow, I feel inept that I seemed to lack in a natural sense of musicality and a good inherent sense of rhythm. The best thing I could do is to make up for my lacking in these through diligent practise.

At the end of the lesson, I asked my tutor about his teaching at the Yong Siew Toh Conservatory of Music. In the conversation, I was told that most of the double bassists at the Conservatory have been playing technically challenging double bass concertos even before they had entered the Conservatory. A feeling of inadequacy seems to lurk unconsciously in me. I have still quite a way to go to reach the level of those conservatory students, it seemed. Hopefully, good consistent practice with time would help me get somewhere close.

The lesson was overall filled with lots of learnings. I learnt some ideas about how to play the sonata better. My tutor also gave some good suggestions about the fingerings that I could use for this sonata. Now, to consolidate those learnings and bring them to a greater height, I would need to continue to practise. I am contemplating the thought of asking for a piano accompanist to play this sonata with me, for sheer fun of playing this sonata, when I am more ready. Wonder who would be free and keen to be the piano accompanist?

Anyway, I am feeling tired and hope to rest for the day. Please forgive me if I had seem to write in an uninteresting tone. I might have temporarily lost interest in all things due to sheer tiredness.