Ailing blogger

*sneeze*, *sneeze*

The past two days have been rainy days. I wonder if I had caught a cold? I have been sneezing many times throughout today.

I am feeling weak and in need of some comforting words. Feeling ill somehow makes my mind feel as if it is spinning. At times, I have to collect my thoughts before I could think clearly.

As if it wasn't disturbing enough for a vulnerable soul, my lower lip is hurting from a wound. I must have been careless, and I bit on it accidentally while I was eating something on Sunday. Now I can feel the pain constantly and it bothers.

A little feverish, and pretty tired now. I guess I shall rest early tonight. Initially, I had planned to practise tonight. But my double bass will forgive me if I could not, for he is very kind.

Hate to see a doctor. Maybe I have a secret fantasy to leave the world. The fantasy must have been the fault of feeling ill. My threshold for discomfort from illnesses seems very low today such that my thoughts went astray. While I do not wish to be ill, I know I am fallible, susceptible to illnesses.

I must praise myself for being able to hold myself together and stay pretty sane throughout the day. But now, in my own home, I give up on doing so. Let loose, and just be. I do not wish to care much when I am not feeliing well.

I am feeling a little sad and a little upset. I wonder if these were effects of the illness? And as I type along and publish this post, I will have my weird and incoherent thoughts documented.

It looks like I may have to excuse myself from bloggerland until further notice.

Wishing myself and everyone good health. The weather hasn't be good lately, so please take good care.