Hoping for a good rest

Came home about an hour ago from rehearsals. I am having some orientation issues, but it was not too bad. For tomorrow's concert, to allow room for the guitar ensemble and choir to sit with our orchestra for the combined item (which was immediately after our orchestra's item), there was some major change in the seating arrangement of the orchestra. We tried this seating arrangement for the rehearsal.

I am feeling not too energetic and I don't wish to bother myself to describe in detail what the arrangement looked like. Anyway, if you were the audience looking towards the stage, now the double bass section will be on left of the stage, near the percussion section. The first violins section will be on the left of the stage too, and it will face the second violins section (which sits on the right of the stage) squarely.

Was trying to adjust. Not too bad. I could hear the harp more clearly from the new seating arrangement since the harp was placed much more nearby the double bass section. As such, I heard a new sound balance today.

Have been feeling a general sense of lethargy over the past week. There have been a lot of questions popping constantly on my mind that I could not really answer. I felt I have no clue what I would like for my future ahead. "What am I here in this world for?, Where should I be going from here?" This bugs me. However, this general sense of feeling directionless was not what has made me feel lousy the entire week. The lousy feeling continues to bug. How would I find a way out if what lies ahead seem dark?

Whatever it is, I take comfort that blog friends have tried to offer their encouragement and support. I thank them.

Meantime, I hope for a good rest. I am feeling tired and ineffective. At times, I wonder if a rest for all eternity may help? But I suppose even if there seems nothing much to really look forward to in my life at this point in time, I still have enough faith that if I were to perserve in the search, I could find some meaning from life itself?