Saturday, August 27, 2005

Hoping for a good rest

Came home about an hour ago from rehearsals. I am having some orientation issues, but it was not too bad. For tomorrow's concert, to allow room for the guitar ensemble and choir to sit with our orchestra for the combined item (which was immediately after our orchestra's item), there was some major change in the seating arrangement of the orchestra. We tried this seating arrangement for the rehearsal.

I am feeling not too energetic and I don't wish to bother myself to describe in detail what the arrangement looked like. Anyway, if you were the audience looking towards the stage, now the double bass section will be on left of the stage, near the percussion section. The first violins section will be on the left of the stage too, and it will face the second violins section (which sits on the right of the stage) squarely.

Was trying to adjust. Not too bad. I could hear the harp more clearly from the new seating arrangement since the harp was placed much more nearby the double bass section. As such, I heard a new sound balance today.

Have been feeling a general sense of lethargy over the past week. There have been a lot of questions popping constantly on my mind that I could not really answer. I felt I have no clue what I would like for my future ahead. "What am I here in this world for?, Where should I be going from here?" This bugs me. However, this general sense of feeling directionless was not what has made me feel lousy the entire week. The lousy feeling continues to bug. How would I find a way out if what lies ahead seem dark?

Whatever it is, I take comfort that blog friends have tried to offer their encouragement and support. I thank them.

Meantime, I hope for a good rest. I am feeling tired and ineffective. At times, I wonder if a rest for all eternity may help? But I suppose even if there seems nothing much to really look forward to in my life at this point in time, I still have enough faith that if I were to perserve in the search, I could find some meaning from life itself?

5 comments:

Simple American said...

I hope you get a good rest Oceanskies. It sounds like the travel may be wearing on you. The only cure may be when you return to the confines of your own bed.

No need to rest for all eternity. People in reality are certain to need you.

The future always hides from us. Just find seek peace from God and confidence will carry you through all darkness.

mistipurple said...

my ker ker says it for me. everyone has a role however obscure it may seem. don't worry oceanskies, this journey you face, the questions you ask, it's all the same for us. it does not bother some people, because they don't ask too many questions and just move on. artistic people of course will need an answer. thus, i also faced the same questions as you, and they do bother me last time. perhaps it is because i am much older than you, i have kind of got over that period! *wink*

pinkie said...

think u need more time to adjust after your trip... hope your work is okay...

take care alright...

crazycat said...

think the jet lag is still around.. try to take some essense of chicken??

oceanskies79 said...

Hi folks, thanks for caring.