Melancholy and Vulnerability

My mood of the day is as the title suggests.

Fatigue? Post-concert depression? Or simply because it is 28 July 2005 (though nothing significant is related to this date)?

Official time to end the workday today was 5.35 p.m. I think it was not a most productive choice to stay back in office to clear work after the end of the workday. I left office close to 9 p.m. At least I have accomplished a report and completed several tasks at hand. But by the time I left office, I was feeling bouts of melancholy. It just felt as if the fatigue could kill.

Vulnerability, because I realise no matter how hard I strive to do whatever I would like to, there is simply a limit to what I can do within a time-frame. I wish I could do better, and yet some how I have yet to reach the standards I have set for myself. Maybe I shall be easy on myself and accept my vulnerabilities and limitations? It makes me a little sad when I try to get in touch with my vulnerable side.

I shall decide not to dwell further. Too much overdwelling in the melancholy and the vulnerability may drive one to depression.

There seems a window right in front, and I shall decide to look out of it to see the brighter side, and tell myself that I shall be alright.